|‘I am no idiot’ |
By CAROL MATROO Monday, March 17 2014
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IN GRIEF: Quelly Ann Cottle recalls events leading up to the death of her baby boy. ...
“My baby was alive, but they never gave me a chance to hold him. I held him when he was dead. If they knew my baby was suffering it’s best that they brought him to me. What is making it hard is to know he was alive for hours without me,” Quelly Ann Cottle cried, as she remembered the delivery of her baby.
Cottle is the mother of Baby Simeon, a babe who lived for just five hours after he was delivered from the cocoon that was his mother’s womb.
He suffered a cut to the head after his mother’s Caesarian section on March 1, which was the primary cause of his death — shock from bleeding as a result of brain injury. Cottle underwent a scheduled C-section at Mt Hope Women’s Hospital on Carnival Saturday.
She is still questioning why her baby did not get the help he needed when he was delivered.
“The bottom line of the whole thing, the child had a cut in his head. I hearing the baby was alive for five hours, this is news to me. So my child was alive for five hours and nobody had even a little sense to come and say because they don’t know if the baby would live or die, say at least have a few minutes with the baby. I never got to hold my child when he was alive,” Cottle said.
During an interview at her humble home in Cumuto, Cottle’s tears flowed and although she wiped them they still kept coming.
“I never saw the baby when the baby was alive.. I hear him, I heard him cry. You see this whole thing, I tired and fed up. I fed up, but I will fight them because I cannot understand seeing the evidence that something went wrong, they see the cut, the pictures, they seeing everything,” an anguished Cottle said. Cottle was upset that Health Minister Dr Fuad Khan had announced on televisions that she had 12 abortions.
“He needs to go into my records and have a good read... I had 12 pregnancies of which I had five miscarriages, one stillbirth, and five living children.
Simeon would have been my 6th child” Cottle said, as she held her belly, which was still sore after her delivery C-section. Cottle admitted that she sleeps with her son’s blanket and booties “to hold him close to me. I will give away my baby’s things. They are in a bag where I can’t see it,” she said.
Cottle was not looking for another baby, and whether it was her responsibility or the father’s to get pregnant again (before Simeon), it does not change the outcome that Baby Simeon is dead. She had a tubal ligation during the delivery of her last son. When Cottlle realised she was pregnant in September, she was not a happy camper as she had had five children and was looking at their economic situation. “My son Kyle told me to keep the baby and everything would be all right. I quit my job as a security guard nearby because I knew of my past experience. My stillborn was at Sangre Grande County Hospital, so they were trying to save this baby.” she told Newsday Cottle said her second child for her husband, Emil Millington, was a girl, who was stillborn at eight months and three weeks.
Cottle continues to blame herself for the death of her son and her baby girl with Millington. “This is the second child I lost for him. I lost the girl and it came to me like I am bad lucky with having his kids. Is there something wrong with me?” she asked. But, Millington believed it was God’s intervention that his son was born and died the way he did.
”My son’s death was God’s intervention, it was the hand of God working here. The consultant, the doctor, the mother, me and the child were put together to ultimately put an end to the madness that is taking place there (Mt Hope) for the longest time,” he said.
Cottle was a little more unforgiving as she said she took out her frustration on her husband. “I take my rage out on him, I just don’t know what to do.” Cottle admitted.
Millington, going through his own grief of losing his second child — he had one from a previous relationship — bears the brunt of her frustration.
“I walk away most of the time, it’s the better thing to do. Everything that we had planned is now on the back burner, but we have to deal with it,” Millington said ,
His humble home, just bricks and mortar, the floor earthen, and a roof of loose galvanise, is the home that would have been Simeon’s.
Yesterday, Cottle said she was frustrated with the process of waiting for her medical records.
“I was told I had to wait 30 working days to get my medical records. I am also hearing on the news that I had fibroids or a growth, this is news to me.” Cottle said.
“If they want to play dirty...if they want to play dirty...the same way they can lie and fabricate, I will tell the truth.. I am not an idiot. Why is my name being dragged down? Everybody is talking at me, not with me. The longer this goes on is the angrier I get,” Cottle confessed.